Escaping The Scroll 📲

~a weekend detox story~ plus, 6 ingredient pistachio freezer fudge & what i'm not buying this spring (+ giveaway winners!)

i recognize that i have an obsessive personality. the type of personality that makes your therapist say “hey, you present with signs of OCD!” i’m just really, really passionate, okay? but really, i’ve lived with obsessive compulsive tendencies for as long as i can remember. i think it got worse when i started my own business. no one prepares you for the multitude of emotions that come with doing your own thing, especially in social media. i am quite literally obsessed with learning more & doing better and while that’s admirable, i sometimes don’t know when to stop.

i am so thankful for my job. i find joy and passion in what i do. i am also fully conscious of social media’s impact on mental health - mine and yours - as we are all consumers. finding the line between work and life can be difficult as a content creator and these past few months i have been personally victimized. even when i take the weekends off of posting, i still i find myself scrolling and feeling... icky. i know it sounds ridiculous for me to write an entire monologue about *TaKiNg TwO wHoLe DaYs* off of instagram, but just roll with me.

i woke up last week seriously considering a Lexapro prescription (no shame!) — i was a MESS. i felt incredibly anxious. couldn’t eat, couldn’t sleep. my Oura ring was about to jump out of its gold plated frame and punch me in the face. when i sat down and thought hard about what was bringing up these horrible feelings, i realized it stemmed from… you guessed it: instagram. here i am, a “wellness influencer” doing the very thing i keep telling everyone not to do: scrolling mindlessly (especially on the weekends), seeking external validation from likes/comments/virality and comparing my life and work to everyone else online. that’s when i decided.